I am willing to disappoint you
I am willing to disappoint you for the sake of honoring my self.
I am willing to tell you that I am selfish.
I am willing to look into the eyes of many upset people and play a new song, one that they may choose to like or dislike.
But this time around it will be my conscious choice.
There is no more "i just get in the van"
There is only me, and my choices now, my actions.
My mistakes and my victories.
My band of six years broke up this week,
i believe it was the hardest decision i've ever had to make,
I also believe its the first decision i've actually made.
I upset one of my best friends - I upset a lot of fans.
I've recieved text messages from numbers i don't know
telling me that i can't let this happen. That I am breaking our fan's hearts.
Some things are un-controllable, I took this photo because i felt it was a beautiful metaphor.
I've been suppressing my doubt, and dis-satisfaction and unhappiness for a long time, hoping that one day
I would find the passion for this project. All the while knowing what i wanted, but not wanting to acknowledge it.
This tree is my desire, my passion.
and it has come to a point where the fence that was built long ago can no longer hold back it's growth.
Today is page one of chapter two.
I have set a rather ambitious goal to produce a 6 or 7 track EP by July 17th.
I invite you to follow my progress at www.myspace.com/andyorsow
and as always here on my blog.
Thank you,
-Andy
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